Here it goes…

Okay Anon I get it I’m shit… I’m stupid… I’m desprite… I’m pathetic… I’m fake I guess… I’m so done with this shit. I’m ugly, I’m gross, I’m fat, I’m just not what’s so ever attractive. Your right anon no one will ever want someone like me… there just no point of my existence…

Anonymous said: it completely blows my fucking mind how stupid you are. "Lets get fucked up" taking pics with your tits all hanging out and your fake ass weave. And now you're a "pansexual?" Are you really that desperate?

Okay you know what enough! Fuck off already I’m so done with you hatin on me. I deal with enough in my life. I seriously don’t need this shit! I get it I’m stupid okay? Feel better? Now leave me alone…

Ugh…

So its the first night in Havasu… didn’t do shit I passed out from being super tired cause of the lack of sleep I’ve had lately.. honestly tonight is the first time I’ve actually had some rest in a couple of weeks… but the weird thing is I had a dream about Leigh-ann… it was crazy. Sadly enough I’ve been thinking about her a lot and she’s been coming up alot in conversation lately.. Weird huh? I guess I just miss having the special person… Whether it be Heather or Leigh-ann or some other girl… I just wanna be happy again. I mean don’t get me wrong I can live without being with someone 24/7. I can be happy single. I love myself. But I have so much love that I wanna share it with someone special.. I guess what I’m try to say is I just miss having an amazing connection with someone. Someone to hold me, love me, kiss me, touch me, someone to be completely faithful to me, just someone who actually misses me… idk I guess I just have to wait alittle longer for my special someone… I just wanna know what I’m doing so wrong that drives people away… I’m loving and give all my time to them and put my all into my relationship to be forgotten and replaced.. that doesn’t sound right to me… idk… I guess ima go back to sleep. More Havasu tomorrow and more pictures up later. Good night all(: